I cannot beleive it has almost been two weeks! I swear he is bigger already. I keep trying to get a good picture of his beautiful blue eyes and I am having troubles with it. Every one just comes out looking black, even after I edit them and add more light. We think they are changing already and getting darker. I am a little sad and really want a picture of them.
SO, the question to my photo savvy friends is: How can I get a good picture of his blue eyes with my regular digital camera and being somewhat technology-retarded?
Please, let me know!
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Out of Time
Okay I have about 10 minutes to write and I don't quite know what to say.
First Baby Rome Joshua was born May 13th at 2:06 pm. He was 8lbs 4.5 ounces and 20 inches long. It was a very long a difficult labor that stalled 4 times and ended up needing all kinds of drugs to help. (There is much more I could say, but I will leave it there for this blog's sake) By the time he showed up I was just happy to be done. I love my little guy, but am surprised at my lack of happy, excited, joyful, exuberant feelings that I thought I would have. I am surprised at my total lack of feeling. I want to feel something.
Josh is great. He was really surprised that he would like being a dad. I knew it. He is really helpful and holds Rome whenever I need him to. He gets frustrated with the baby and hides it well. I don't see it, but I am a little slow lately.
I mostly feel detached and am waiting to come back down to myself and my life. I am waiting to feel that joy and attachment to my little boy that I think I am supposed to feel. Maybe it just comes slower for me, like a lot of other things in this whole process. I always knew I wanted to be a mom and I was soo excited to get there. I am just not sure how I feel yet about BEING a mom.
Josh and me looking at Rome, My big baby
His pretty blue eyes (I know you can't tell), My Mother's day present from Josh
I asked for flowers so he got me one that would not die (plus he dislikes flowers). I thought it was very sweet along with the note he wrote for me.
First Baby Rome Joshua was born May 13th at 2:06 pm. He was 8lbs 4.5 ounces and 20 inches long. It was a very long a difficult labor that stalled 4 times and ended up needing all kinds of drugs to help. (There is much more I could say, but I will leave it there for this blog's sake) By the time he showed up I was just happy to be done. I love my little guy, but am surprised at my lack of happy, excited, joyful, exuberant feelings that I thought I would have. I am surprised at my total lack of feeling. I want to feel something.
Josh is great. He was really surprised that he would like being a dad. I knew it. He is really helpful and holds Rome whenever I need him to. He gets frustrated with the baby and hides it well. I don't see it, but I am a little slow lately.
I mostly feel detached and am waiting to come back down to myself and my life. I am waiting to feel that joy and attachment to my little boy that I think I am supposed to feel. Maybe it just comes slower for me, like a lot of other things in this whole process. I always knew I wanted to be a mom and I was soo excited to get there. I am just not sure how I feel yet about BEING a mom.
Josh and me looking at Rome, My big baby
His pretty blue eyes (I know you can't tell), My Mother's day present from Josh
I asked for flowers so he got me one that would not die (plus he dislikes flowers). I thought it was very sweet along with the note he wrote for me.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Belly Show
I made this little video last week. It looks funny because it is me looking down. The little guy likes to wake up at 9 or 10 at night, when I want to go to sleep, and kick and wiggle until about 11. You can see a couple pretty good ones. The first is a leg and the second is an arm. It freaks Josh out to see the little "alien" moving around in there. And don't listen to me talking. What are you supposed to say when you are videotaping your belly moving?
Baby Please!
So, the last couple of weeks have been ...
Miserable! I am so ready for this baby to show up and he is happy where he is at. I have been trying to keep myself busy and Josh has been doing his best to help and not strangle me. He has been calling in the middle of the day to make sure I am okay. (And if anything has changed or happened, which it hasn't) He is even having dreams that I am going into labor. I have to tell him to go back to sleep, nothing is happening. It is just a dream... big sigh.
We went fishing for weeds, and caught a fish, saw some baby geese,
I got some pretty toes, I built a Tank (I ran out of puzzles, what can I say)
I cleaned my whole house, finished an entire scrapbook, made cookies and brownies, finished a book and read my copy of What to Expect When You're Expecting... for the 5th time.
What else is there to do anyway?
Miserable! I am so ready for this baby to show up and he is happy where he is at. I have been trying to keep myself busy and Josh has been doing his best to help and not strangle me. He has been calling in the middle of the day to make sure I am okay. (And if anything has changed or happened, which it hasn't) He is even having dreams that I am going into labor. I have to tell him to go back to sleep, nothing is happening. It is just a dream... big sigh.
We went fishing for weeds, and caught a fish, saw some baby geese,
I got some pretty toes, I built a Tank (I ran out of puzzles, what can I say)
I cleaned my whole house, finished an entire scrapbook, made cookies and brownies, finished a book and read my copy of What to Expect When You're Expecting... for the 5th time.
What else is there to do anyway?
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